Stuff-thingy

Officially in love with my new inner, flower bandana. I bought it from Hijab-Scarf's new brand, Casa Elana.

If this writing could be a letter to heaven...

If I had a time machine, I'd fix all my mistakes from the tiny even to the biggest one. I think about this machine occasionally. Does this machine really exist in this world? Is the time machine located in Bermuda Triangle like everyone said recently? Has anyone ever used this machine to go back to his/her past life? I'm questioning those unanswerable questions day by day. But let me make it straight, for me, myself, if the time machine was for real in this world, and I already had it actually, I'd turn back-time to the day when I was five. I must admit that I was a bad girl. I was being impolite and rude with my grandma, only with her. I always shouted and yelled at her face when she said something to me. And even worst, I pointed at her face :'( But actually she was really kind. Even when I ignored her selfishly, she still did smile at me and her face felt like said something to me, “I forgive your faults, dear. You're still a child. You're learning. Someday you'll realize”. I dont know why I was so irritating at that time. But after I grew up older, I knew that all I"ve done to my grandma was really a big mistake that couldn't be forgiven. It's really a deep regret and something I can't resist from my mind until now.

My grandma has passed away long before I could behave in a mature and responsible way. Before I could realize all the mistakes I've made to her. She has gone before I could talk to her that she was the gentle woman I've ever met. She has left before I could say “sorry”. And as if all the regrets I feel now are useless. This one sheet of paper writing will never be enough to describe her sincerity and also my feeling. I hope this writing can automatically send to heaven. So, she can read all my deep remorse without letting everyone knows. (Ups, I'm letting you know). I'm actually embarrassed to tell you this story. But really, I can feel the burden relieves after writing it. This's maybe a good sign from her from heaven. I know you are there, dear grandma, waiting for me to give a big hug like you used to give to me.

with love,

Niken

Car Free Day

This post is dedicated to my mother in law soon-to-be hehe amin. If it's not because of her, I wouldn't participate on the most well-known event in Jakarta, Car Free Day. Why? Because she bought me a folding bike! Alhamdulillah. Like mother like son, this trait really seems like HIM. Thank you Ibu. May your kindness will bring you prosperity and happiness now and hereafter. Amin.


with him